recent posts. ♥ Stars starting to disappear. Feeling awful. It's so complicated. Broken String. No idea Monday Blue. It's a Sunday. Tell me that I'm in London now. British Lady.

I'm doing all I can, to be a better man.
"I don't want to lose you but I don't want to use you just to have someone by my side."

This is so much true. Start looking back at all the stuffs that had happened, Selfishness invaded my mind for all those times. I took away their freedoms , I took away their mind, their devotions , their love away from them. and now they're left with nothing but mending their own broken heart. Some of them fell, some of them hold on and some of them just left.

I should have thought of these earlier. I should have give them a more straightforward answer rather than deli-dali and dropping hints on them.

Because of my own selfishness, at the end of the day, I'm the one that's the least to be care about. I'm the one that's left down at the back of the valley, picking myself up.

Because of my forbia of losing friends, I hold on till they let go of me.

My soul doesnt heals my own shame, I'm not yet ready to undergo all those pain.
I've been told to take the pain, yet I ran away, far far away.

For now, I do hope that things turn out better. I wish that those friends are still my best friends.