Am I like a fool or an idiot? I knew that he will hate me for blogging things over here.
I just wish to throw out all my thoughts to those strangers that came across my blog.
I felt like an idiot, like a moron last night. No one know how i feel. It's just like the sky is crashing down. heavy heart. tired eyes. Restless. For that moment, how i wish this 2 person are by my side. But hell no, I think too much.
I felt so unwanted, I felt like Im a trash.
Having myself get tired of running here and there, doing all sort of things i didnt do it before, yet what I get was merely just another hurtful sentence out from your mouth.
Stop, I told myself to stop it. I'm so confused. everytime I wish to find someone to talk about. I'm afraid. I dont wish to affect anyone of them. Sometime, I feel like suiciding. I dont want this life anymore. I want to sleep for good. I want to meet the angel and fairies up there, ( if there's really angels and fairies)
On the other hand, as for * ,I cant stop feeling empty. I knew that I need him still. I need his time, his ear, in fact i think his everything is what I needed. I need his care and concern too, but i knew he longed walk away from me. He dont bother about my life anymore. He leave for good. He's free now.