Time isnt really good for me. There's alot of things been bothering me, leaving me no space to catch a breath. But no matter how bad am I, how troubled am I, I never fail to try to smile.

and that's me.

I'm trying to understand and love myself more. Thinking back , I onced came to a point whereby I wanted to end up my life. I'd never been really selfish, and because of that, Seriously I dont know how can I love myself, what should I do?

I was browsing through straits time online just now, face booking, and I came by a girl named Melissa Toh.

She suicided last wednesday , due to some relationship issues.

She's so much beautiful and talented. I'd never seen such a beautiful girl before, She's so charming, Her smile for especially.

Not only that, she's talented, she's good in English Literature and designs.
Especially her illustration.

Life is really fragile but god is always fair.
It's human's decision that's unfair. We shouldnt blame anyone for what we had done.
Human are selfish. They feel that what they do will actually please others, but it doesnt happen in that way.

They please themselves, they bear grudges, they turn love into hatred.

She wanted that guy to remember her, for what she did that's all caused by him.
It's a pity that she does that to herself, what hurts the most, is leaving her family right behind.

She might rejoice, but the world cries.
Sometime, I asked myself, are they really happy up there? or they regretted for making those choices.